Emblème, Michael Maier - Atalanta Fugiens
I am a cat. Some of you may wonder how a mere cat can analyse his master’s thoughts with the detailed acumen which I have just displayed. Such a feat is a mere nothing for a cat. Quite apart from the precision of my hearing and the complexity of my mind, I can also read thoughts. Don’t ask me how I learned that skill. My methods are none of your business. The plain fact remains that when, apparently sleeping on a human lap, I gently rub my fur against his tummy, a beam of electricity is thereby generated, and down that beam into my mind’s eye every detail of his innermost reflections is reflected…
I Am A Cat, Natsume Soseki
"Earth could not answer, nor the Seas that mourn — In flowing purple, of their Lord forlorn; Nor Heaven, with those eternal Signs reveal’d and hidden by the sleeve of Night and Moon."
Edmund Dulac illustration for The 36th Quatrain of The Rubaiyat of Omar Khayyam, 1909
I don’t question who I am here, but I question why. There’s so much I don’t have the space to reflect upon, so much confusing me. I’ve never been so sporadically moody, or felt such an even conflict in my desire to be near people. It’s as if I’ve forgotten how to be alone, which I knew all too well a month ago. I really love the people I’ve met, I don’t think I’d want it to be different. I just wish I wasn’t on such an emotional roller coaster, flipping through these slivers of emotions within a single day, wondering which one will explain why I need to feel something. swallowing the collective emotional atmosphere, being unable to separate the feelings of 45 other people from my own. something is trying to tear itself from me, but I don’t think it’s me so much as them, screaming in my chest, wondering why I’ve trapped them in the dark when they were never mine to hold. I’ve been a vessel for as long as I can remember.
Some people are your family no matter when you find them, and some people are not, even if you are laid, still wet and crumpled, in their arms.
Amy Bloom - Love Invents Us (via sailor-starlight)